The Leaving

Son,
I have had another realization recently, they seem to come to me at the oddest of times. I suppose as mothers, that is how we learn. With our busy schedules and awareness of others, our conscious takes any opportunity it can to make a point.
What I have simply taken note of is this, you have begun your leaving. I'm talking about the natural progression of life, the building of another life outside my influence. One where you keep secrets or have no need to consult your parents. The proving ground of what I have taught you and the decisions you will make is here and I am anxious to see what you will do with it. I see it's evidence in the way you are with your friends when I catch you in an unguarded moment, in the messages I come across that are not meant for me. You are different with them, you are different on your own. I am happy about this, you are a fine young man making good choices. As your life progresses and you continue to strengthen your own decision making abilities, your need for me will continue to lessen. The man you will become is entirely up to you. I can only hope that I have prepared you.

I have always said my children are not mine. You have always belonged to Heavenly Father, I have just had the blessing of helping you start your mortal journey. We will always be tied together by this earthly experience but ultimately our goal is to become our best selves.

Please don't feel that by acknowledging this truth that I am in any way saying goodbye to you. I am simply recognizing that my role is becoming one of cheerleader and course corrector. I am happy to let you begin your leaving as I watch you begin your journey on the right path. But while I am watching from the open door, I will continue to offer ideas and direction when I see you stumble or take a wrong turn. Remember, the road home is never long, I will always be here when you want to visit.

I love you!

Mom