I'm gonna go out on a limb here and share a little of what's happening in my life. Most of you know that my husband is self employed, a new business that is trying to get off the ground. We still have ties to our old company as well but for the day to day stuff, we're pretty much on our own.
My hubby enjoys what he does, the people he works with, but it's been especially hard the last month or so with the economic winter that our country is in. I watch him each day do the best he can to provide for our family but some days it's a battle to make any headway.
If you had asked me 2 years ago what I would think of this situation, I'm not sure I could have told you. The woman I was two years ago wouldn't have been able to handle the possible future we're facing now. Don't get me wrong, things really are going as good as can be expected. It's just such an uphill climb.
I have two futures, the first is where this economy starts to climb out of this hole and right itself. It's the future where I don't have to worry if we'll have to live on savings and food storage. It's also attached to the future where we are able to make enough money to pay our bills and get by. It's the future I prefer. The second is the one where this really is another great depression and we lose our house and live like Cinderella Man. I don't like that one.
The funniest thing about this crossroad is that I have come to feel a peace about either path. I used to try to "sense" the future. I would often find myself saying, I think this is the right way to go, it "feels" the best. I "feel" okay about either of my possible roads.
I have developed such a love and appreciation for my husband and children that I cannot help but be grateful for the challenges we are facing. There is nothing that brings me a greater joy than to spend time with my family, to be a mom. I am eternally grateful that my husband and I agree that I should be home with our kids. I can't imagine how difficult it would be for them to navigate through this with me unavailable to them.
I'm grateful for the lessons I'm learning about prudence and self-reliance. Gone are my days of overspending. I have become fiscally responsible and I love the way it feels.
I decided to share these things because it just makes sense to me that there are others out there who are feeling the same way. I figure it's better to find friends in adversity than feel alone.
*Do you feel you have two futures?
4 comments:
Wow, what a great strength and example you are to me.
I think everyone's a bit uncertain about what will happen tomorrow - many of us would be dead in our tracks in a short matter of time if the flow of income stopped. Like you said, it's definitely a scary time and time to pull in the purse strings. I think the best we can all do is be grateful for what we have today, hope for the best for tomorrow, and pray like we mean it! You inspire me when I see that you feel peace with whatever road come around the bend. Being aware and prepared for both roads is definitely the way to be. Love ya, Tiff! :) And PS - thank goodness for coupons in the meantime! :)
You are right, many of us are feeling the same way. I love the perspective that you have on all of this--of course we hope for the best, but in the meantime prepare in the ways we can in case the "best" doesn't occur. Thanks for your great insights.
I love your attitude about that. We have 2 futures as well. We still have a house that will not sell in Arizona, and the value has dropped so much, I doubt it ever will. I am grateful for the blessings that we do have however. I loved your post.
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